Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Not a big deal for anyone else

BUT...We just paid our last payment on the truck! We paid it off 2 years early. Yayhoo! This is a total God thing because with a truck payment it would be difficult to have the two mortgages. Now, we just wait for the house to sell!!

Monday, September 29, 2008

It's Official

Britney and Tygh (the C's) were chosen!!!!

Praise the Lord!

The meeting went wonderfully, and the birthmom loved them. The baby is due in early November, but due to complications will probably be here in mid October! I am so happy for them! I'll share details as they emerge.

Love you all!

Friday, September 26, 2008

A God Question

I was praying for our house to sell this morning, and I had this sudden thought that had to have been from God.

"Would you rather your house quickly, or would you rather I reveal more of myself to you by providing for you in unexpected ways while you're waiting?"

I was a little caught off guard. It was hard to be face to face with that question, because the honest answer is that I am scared of what's going to happen if the house doesn't sell or we don't have renters soon after the New Year. I don't want to believe that it's going to take that long. I don't want to have to scrimp and save and cut corners forever. I don't want to have to work forever (even though I love it). It's just scary. I had to confess my lack of faith and pray for the desire to get to know God better through this process, not just think of Him as my holy genie.

After praying and being able to truly say, "Reveal yourself, Lord, I trust you," I felt a weight lifted off my shoulders.

A few hours later I got an email from Mark telling me that he got into a Van Pool at work! This is great news because as long as it's a registered car pool (it is) the Navy pays for all the gas! This is going to save us about half of our gas budget every month. You are so good, Lord! Thank you!

Thursday, September 25, 2008

Lovin' the Twos

I am loving this age. A month or so ago I was wading through the difficulties, but Tate's been doing really well lately. He's learning obedience and his tantrums, while still frequent, are getting to a predictable routine so I kind of know the pattern.

Take yesterday for example: we were getting ready to go to the gym around 8:30 or so, and our cold little house was very, VERY cold. I had a sweatshirt, sweats and a hat on, so I put a sweatshirt on Tate and said
"Tate, before we go outside we have to put on a hat because it's very cold and I don't want you to get sick. We will take the hat off when we get in the car."
He yelled
and threw himself on the floor as I was trying to put it on. I finally got it on, and said
"you do not take your hat off until mommy says it's ok. If you do, you will get a spanking."
He immediately took the hat off, and got a spanking. (This is a quick retelling of the story, in reality when I spank I explain why they are receiving a spanking, spank them, and then let them cry and hug's a lengthy process). Anyway, after he calmed down he let me put the hat on, but was still trying to move his head to get it to fall off. As we walked outside he seemed to accept the hat, and when we got in the car I said
"Great job, Tate, you can take your hat off! You have to wear it outside, not inside."
He took it off and was in a great mood!
On the way home it had warmed up considerably, so I was debating to myself on whether to push the hat issue. I had just about decided against it as I pulled into the driveway. When I went to unbuckle Tate, he reached for his hat and said
"Outside. Tate's hat."
And was trying to put it on! All by himself! He was obeying without being prompted! I was so proud of him. I helped him put on the hat, we walked in the house and once we were inside I said
"Ok, you can take off your hat now."
He did. I praised him all morning for his integrity in obeying me without being reminded. I am really proud of him for choosing to obey, especially when it was something he obviously didn't like. I realize it's a small matter in the big scheme of things, but at two, almost everything is a small matter. And, until he's faithful in the little things he can't learn to be faithful in the big ones.

Way to go Handsome Boy! I am so proud of you for following directions and obeying. You are such an inspiration and an encouragement! I love you.

Wednesday, September 24, 2008


A friend of my mom's was my first repeat customer! I made a couple of hat and bootie sets for her daughter last year, and she wanted more this year! So much fun. I also got a hat done for Tate...he hated it at first, but after the first time wearing it he didn't seem to mind as much. I'll get a pic of him and his new hat later. It feels good to be creating again, even if it is minimal. I'm still having a hard time getting inspired, but seeing other things has helped, and I think I even found a blanket I'm going to make for my niece for Christmas...we'll see. A blanket is pretty ambitious.

Other than that, life continues on. I went to the gym 4 (yes, four!) times last week, and I've been twice this week! I'm pleased with my ability to work out even though I know I'm not going to lose weight. So far I'm still a pound lighter than my pre-pregnancy weight last time, so that's encouraging. I've gained about 7 pounds so far. Hopefully if I'm more diligent this time it won't take so long to get it off afterward!

Ok, well, time to get a devotional in. Tate's down for a nap so now's my chance. Have a fantastic day!



Tuesday, September 23, 2008

I've tried

and I can't do it.

I've watched the first half of season one of Heroes.

I just don't like it. It's too segmented for me, I guess. I have a hard time remembering each player and getting into every story. I get annoyed that in one episode it's mostly about a certain character, but the next episode doesn't even mention him/her.

A lot of people I know-including my husband-enjoy the show. I guess I'm just not one of them.

Oh well, there are a bunch of more productive things I can be doing with my time, right?

Monday, September 22, 2008

Pure JOY

I just got the news today...

...our dear friends, the ones who have been through so much and were the other couple our birthmom considered...


They meet with their birthmom on Friday to make sure it's a good thing on both sides. I am so happy for them I can't stop crying! (and for you cynical types, no, it's not the pregnancy hormones).

Please keep the C's in your prayers, and their birthmom Rachel. I'll let you know when I know more!

Praise God from whom all blessings flow,
Praise him all creatures here below
Praise him above ye heavenly hosts
Praise Father, Son and Holy Ghost!

Saturday, September 20, 2008


Yay for today!

It's raining outside, and I love the rain.

I love Fall, but I prefer to call it Autumn. It sounds prettier.

I love that Tate is in a great mood this morning, and Mark let me sleep in.

We're going to have a FMD, Family Movie Day, where we wrap up in blankets and watch cartoons (ICE AGE is first on the list).

Oh! And we are the proud new owners of a Deep Freezer! I found on on Craigslist last night for $25! I'm really excited because it means that I'll be able to stock up more when things are on sale, and also that I can make more applesauce!

Other than that, life is pretty status quo. We're still really, REALLY praying for our house to sell/rent. Please, if you remember, say a prayer for it, too. We are ready to close that chapter of our lives and it's hard to do so with a house on the market. We love that home, and hope the next owners will be as blessed to live there as we were.

Alright, off to FMD. Have a great weekend friends!

PS I'm starting to think that "Tractor/Sam" is a girl, but we'll have to wait and see...:)

PPS I don't really do pink, so my daughter will wear a lot of teal and purple, that's why 'girl' isn't in pink.

Thursday, September 18, 2008

Not much

  • All caught up on the applesauce (at least what I had cored and sliced). We currently have about 2 gallons of applesauce in our freezer.
  • I picked another half gallon of blackberries today. I'm sure Tate will enjoy them this winter.
  • I've had a HUGE craving for the Dairy Queen banana cream pie blizzard for the last three days. Instead of going to get it, I went and worked out today. That's something, right?
  • Tate had an pretty good day today. He didn't want to use the potty today, so I didn't push him.
  • It was a really grey day today, so I need all of the color inspiration I can get.

There's a lot more rolling around in my head, but I don't have the energy or desire to write it all out. It's pretty soap-boxy anyway, so I'm sure you don't mind :)



Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Fundamental Misconception

This morning:

Me: "Tate, we're going to start really potty training this week. You're going to stop going pee pee in your diaper and start going pee pee in the potty all the time!"

Tate: (Very enthusiastically) "Yeah!"

I am pleased to report that Tate then peed on the potty without me prompting him, he told me he had to go, so we went. He got his customary M&M as a reward.

After Naptime:

Tate: "Pee pee! Pee Pee! No diaper. MMMMMMMAAAAAMMMMMMMMMAAAAAA!"

Me: (Walking into his room) "Ok Buddy, do you need to go pee pee in the...Whoa! What happened?"

Tate: (Proudly holding his dry diaper in his hands, standing in the middle of his urine soaked bed,) "Mama, pee pee no diaper. Yay!"

Me: Wow son! Apparently there has been a fundamental misconception in your understanding of potty training. We'll work on that, won't we?

Tate: (Optimistically) Yeah!

Down time

Ahhh...Tate is almost always up and ready to go before 7, so I am enjoying the peace and quiet of the morning. It's nice for a change.

I was feeling pretty awful all weekend, and I have managed to link it to the prenatal vitamins that I was given by the doctor. My regular ones were out and I was given a sample by the nurse to hold me over until my appointment on Monday. As soon as I got my regular rx I was back to feeling pretty great. Thank goodness for the second trimester reprieve!

I've been pretty productive these last few days. Monday I picked a gallon of blackberries and froze them. Here's why. Tate eats yogurt for breakfast every morning. I HATE high fructose corn syrup. Most flavored yogurts have that in them. Now, I can just give him plain yogurt that tastes like sour cream, but with blackberries it tastes great! Plus, the plain stuff is cheaper than the organic flavored stuff he's been getting. It's all about saving money these days!

In the same vein, I've also got another apple tree ripe and ready for harvest. I harvested several gallons of apples, cored and sliced them and have a few gallons of applesauce in my freezer. I have about 2 gallons to go before I'm done with this batch, and then I still have a tree full of apples to use. Tate loves applesauce so this will also save us money.

Along the saving line of thought, please pray for our house to sell or for us to find renters. Our friends, Adam and Deb, who have been renting our house for the past 18 months are on their way to Hawaii for a much deserved shore tour!! They have taken such great care of the house, and I am so appreciative of that. Now we just need to move the house so we don't have too many months of a double mortgage (well, mortgage and rent). I am trusting that the Lord is going to take care of it, but it's kind of nerve wracking some days. My Spanish classes start in October so that will help lighten the load, and I have taken a child care job a couple times a week that starts in October as well. The Lord is good, He is providing.

Oh, the picture is Tate playing in the leap frog fountain at the zoo on Sunday, too much fun!
Love you all!
Jenni & "Tractor"

Monday, September 15, 2008

It's never too early

to Fall in love with Blackberry season!

Friday, September 12, 2008


The doctor's appointment went really well. A HUGE relief. I go in on Monday again for a normal appointment, this last one was just with the nurse. Hopefully we'll be able to schedule our 20 week ultrasound then, too!

After the appointment I was filled with relief. I am so much more excited about this pregnancy knowing that I feel comfortable and safe at the office. I realize that I have to be my own advocate and all, but it's easier to do that when you feel like you have value and you are important. I never felt that at the Naval Hospital because they were so understaffed and overworked.

Ok, I'm going to go get Tate some lunch. It's hard to believe, but it's already that time. Have a great day!

Jenni & "Tractor"

Thursday, September 11, 2008

Quote of the day

Tate and I are reading Berenstain Bears "New Baby" this morning, and Tate points to the sister bear and says "sister" and then to brother and says "brother".

I say, "yes, Tate, good job! You are going to have a baby soon, do you want a sister or a brother?"

Tate says "No, momma, Tractor."



Jenni & "Tractor"

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

If you think of it...

...please pray for me tonight and tomorrow. My appointment is at three. I have a lot of anxiety surrounding doctors visits ever since being pregnant with Tate. I had AWFUL experiences at my routine appointments. I'm praying for peace, knowing that God will answer my prayers. I just want to have a good experience to set the tone for the pregnancy. Thanks, guys.

Jenni & "Sam"

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

So busy!

Let me first say, I LOVE FALL! It's my favorite time of year and I'm so glad it's finally here! I've had three pumpkin spice lattes so far (decaf, of course) could life get any better???

Sorry for the lack of posts. I was in a wedding on Saturday, and it was a busy week leading up to the wedding. It was beautiful though, just gorgeous. Brittany was an incredible bride, she was laid back and relaxed and looked amazing. My good friend Kayla Bosma did all of the pictures (including this amazing shot on the ferry) and I can't wait to see the rest. My dear husband ended up doing sound for the wedding last minute, and did a great job! That is one of the things I love and admire about him, he's not easily flustered and can step into a job with a moment's notice and keep a really positive attitude. We got home pretty late from the wedding, but we had fun!
Sunday some good friends of ours from Virginia came to visit. Paul and Alana and their two kiddos, Kade and Jacey flew stopped in for a night on their way home to California from Alaska. It was great to get in a game of Carcassone (Alana won again) and see how the kids have grown. This was the first time in our busy lives that Alana and I have been pregnant together. Before we were on opposite schedules (literally, Kade, Tate and Jacey are all 9 months apart) but now she is 10 weeks ahead of me. They are also waiting to see if it's a boy or girl, so we'll know around Christmas time! For the record, I'm betting girl for them and I have honestly no idea for us.
Tate's had a rough time these last few days with my busy schedule. I think he's ready for a normal day to just hang, the two of us. I'm happy to oblige him today. I think I needed it, too.
Well, that gets you pretty caught up with our lives, what's up with you?

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

Some thoughts

I've been thinking a lot lately about our daughter, the one we will never hold. I was reflecting on the the time from the end of May when we were chosen, though July when we found out that plans had changed. Being who I am, I tend to focus on why this happened and sometimes wonder why God didn't change the outcome of this situation. I can point out a lot of reasons why our home environment is better suited for children, but focusing on that is futile.

So, in the wanderings of my mind I started to think how God was preparing us for what would happen. First off, as I've stated before, we were chosen instead of our friends who don't have a child yet. I am so glad that we were able to shield them from the pain of losing another child. They have been through so much already, and another loss on top of their circumstances would have been so difficult.

Also, the week before the adoption fell through, two different women approached me about adopting. Each one knew a woman that was pregnant and looking to make an adoption plan. For a bit of background, Mark and I have always wanted a bi-racial family. I love Spanish, I love the Latino culture and language, but mostly I love the people. When we were engaged and going through counseling, we both felt that we would have four children, two biological and two adopted, presumably from Central or South America. We don't want to have just one non-Caucasian child because we don't think that it's fair to that child to be singled out in the family (not by us, but undoubtedly there would be stares and questions) so we were praying about different adoption plans for the future, and decided to adopt two children internationally later on. This is important because both of the babies we were asked about are going to be biracial. I really felt like God was calling me back to his original plan for us, the passion that he has put into our hearts for Central and South America. Because we were already in the process of adopting Elliana, we put the ladies in touch with our friends mentioned above. The situations didn't end up working out for various reasons, but I feel God paving the way for the desires of our hearts.

Another 'God incidence' was the timing of a friend sharing a book called The Shack with me. The book was an incredible way for me to understand God better, and how to deal with "Great Sadness". My friend, Jane, gave me the book about a week before the adoption fell through, and I praise God that she was so bold in giving it to me. It was a divine appointment, that's for sure.

God has been with us throughout this whole process, especially when things fell apart. I believe Elliana was supposed to be ours, because if she wasn't then there was another baby out there. Our prayers for the birth mom were heard and answered, and this pregnancy is a result of a change in plans. Nothing is bigger than God's plan, BUT he doesn't force himself upon us, especially if we don't know and acknowledge him as our Savior and Lord.

I am so thankful to serve a big God, who is with us always.

"Sometimes the Lord calms the storm, and other times He lets the storm rage and focuses on calming His child." Scott Krippayne